I hate the job, the actual work. I hate my co-workers. The environment is hostile at times. I've been out on FMLA leave twice in two years, a month each time. It hasn't helped. I need to leave the field completely and do something else.

As far as T is concerned... I think neither of us was anticipating the reaction I had. EMDR trauma processing is all about going back to those traumatic moments and working through them while there's some kind of bilateral stimulation. In my case, we use things that alternate buzzing in each of my hands. Sometimes it brings up really unexpected emotions.