I been doing it for about 2 months I feel meh about it was helping me only like twice I guess my fault.
I think I want to take a break or find someone else.

These things bother me

*sessions are 1 hr each appointment though I am most the time free for me, there are times my thepaist was 30minutes late exclamation to help other clients on the phone I understand the needs to help others like me this kinda bothers me a little, she still apologizes though so I get it. I think it bothers me because one time I was 5 minutes late as work hold me back little bit I wanted to be showered and presentable than grease covered or smelly felt she was okay with it but subtle hint in tone she didn't like it I did apologize. Sessions seem short when she is late like sometimes 20minutes out I go.

*she wants me to write my life story & read it like show and tell, I told her I dislike this way I better just talking than wasting time to write my years that takes time at home and rather just talk about it but I am not a writer. I have told her this felt guilt tripped into it so I stopped doing it.

*Achevement list she wants me to write or keep small one for each date I won't lie after crap day at work or me doing excersize keep motivation going I sometimes forget. When I forget I kinda get guilt tripped disappointment towards me.

I do like CBT to train my thoughts and reading recommend books as homework but sometimes the homework is write life story and do an achievement journal. She getting me to do assignment that involves finding affirmations of positivey which are good but some of them she gives me seem like cloud 9 than logical I like logic positively not "I put my my faith in my ability to be happy." "I choose to be happy" these things don't click no how much she gets me to read them. There are days I can have such a good day out of no where for many days of feeling piece of crap on the floor I try faking the I feel good I can do this many times before seeing a thrapist other wise I wouldn't be their.

I just don't know if its me being idiot about this but each time I go don't feel comfortable about going anymore.
Therapy isn't meant to be always flowers and daisys just this feel like something doesn't click I just want to see if there are different ways of fixing me in therapy.
I have tried discussing the issues I have with some of this she comes back to me saying I being like this for many years I would take time I try to beleive it but just doesn't feel right way she gives the sentence. Could be just me.

Meds help now I can get up out of bed most days than I used to.