apparently im just stressed out over something...
just havent really had this reaction before, or maybe i have...
i just wanna hide.. dont wanna say anything...
not sure what is happening, but freaking out doesnt solve anything..


just shaking my head...

making a big deal out of nothing... just not sure why im having a hard time remembering stuff... if that would go away i could just be fine, be like things used to be... just dont think about it - i wanna say im stuck in a dream.. but it cant be a dream can it..? oh man ... im glad no one is watching me..
dad "peaked" in on me earlier and i dunno what i was doing.. he chuckled and said "what are you bored?" and i jumped up from slotching in the seat or whatever i was doing and looked at him and was like nah im just building this wall on this game, im just kind of disconnecting and .. i dunno... i guess i just do other things while im some where else... but i feel like its really noticeable... and im so tired i cant keep fighting these things, like im gonna just faint because i dont have the energy... dizzy alot
i feel so retarded.. dont like writing or talking about things because it makes me feel stupid... it just makes you see how bad your memory is and wtf are you thinking..?
watching yourself go crazy...

tired