First off I would like to say this is my first time using this site, so I hope I use it right. I am coming to this site for the first time for this very problem I have now.

So for the past few weeks, I have been worried/curious about me might having mania/bipolar through the things my friends say to me, and thoughts about myself. However after researching further I have come to realize that the effects of adderall may be creating a fake illusion of me having bipolar disorder.

I was diagnosed with add (not hyperactive) around 6 years ago. I take adderall my add, but I only take it when at school because I feel as if it is unnecessary to take it outside school. For the past three years I have been at school, very confident and feel happy, I will be someone and do great things, I am better than others. I just figured that this was who i am, I kid with high self esteem. Recently, on the weekends and after school, I have been less confident in things I usually feel very good about (grades, projects, myself in general)

Here is an example to help explain what I am trying to say

I have good grades, a good gpa, and others compliment me on it, and I myself feel very good about it. I sometimes fascinate about what I will do in life and how great I might be. Two weeks ago I completed segment 1 of drivers instructor. The instructor told me, and my parent personally, that I struggled at some things, and was overall below average then most of the other students, but I was still "passable" so I passed.

After I got home I went to my room, went to my bed. Then I started to reflect on it, and started squirming, rolling, panicking, crying. I thought about what if I can't improve my driving? what if I can't drive? then my thoughts led me to asking myself am I really as amazing as I think I am? Will I actually amount to anything? Am I even talented at anything? Do I even have the knowledge to succeed? After asking myself these questions, and upsetting myself very much about it, an hour and a half later I suddenly stopped thinking about it, and felt fine, and continued one not answering a single one of those questions.

This is not the first time something like this has happened, frequently I can be the most positive person ever, and then the most littlest things completely change my mood about myself and everything else around me. Recently I have been searching to find out more about why I am completely positive and confident, then neglect everything I once thought later on. This almost seems like signs of bipolar/mania depression, but I don't know for sure.

So I want to know if all of this is because of the adderall I take, or I may have a bipolar/mania disorder? or perhaps some kind of other disorder?