I'm single and haven't had sex in over a year. It's not *all* I think about, but I find myself saying outrageously flirtatious things to my female friends, some of whom I'm not even attracted to. I don't know why I do it and it's always over text or Facebook. I say things I would never say face to face.
We'd been meeting every Friday night in the hot tub and we'd go for drinks after. I thought we were getting to be good friends. She suggested we could date but didn't want to because it would ruin the friendship. I said I understood and had no problems with it. We were even texting each other late at night in bed to say goodnight. So while my joke / comment was pretty lame, it was the vicious vicious backlash that sent me into tears.
That's where I am right now. I'm struggling with the belief that "a good person wouldn't say the things I do."
Thanks for all the feedback, it helps. I'm meeting my therapist to go this in two weeks. Tick tock, Scully.
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