I am so sorry you are having to go through this drop right now. I sympathize and empathize with everything you said as I am right there with you at this moment which is what drew me to your thread. I hate that you are feeling so bad and sure wish I could make it go away for you.
I hear you on feeling stuck with no answers, especially with contacting you t by text. I'm sure you are right about the response you would get as I caved myself today and yesterday actually and got that exact response. It might still be worth considering if it stays intense and you are anything like me because even though I know the text outcome, there is some sense of relief in knowing that someone out there cared enough to contact you back and show you that you are not alone. I reread some texts to help me get through some points just trying to remind myself that there is someone with me now. Of course that's just me and I don't know if it helps you any. If you struggle with the aloneness in the battle though, don't give up the idea of reaching out to her just because you know the outcome. Maybe the support itself can help you through.

My thoughts are with you and hope you have a much better day tomorrow and don't even need the help