Since I've been properly medicated I haven't had what I call deep dark depressions.

They feel like nothingness. I can't move, eat, bathe, nothing is interesting. Sometimes I'll sleep a lot sometimes not at all. Taking a bath feels like going to another country. Absolutely no energy. Just darkness. No appetite. Just want to be in my bed laying down. Can't even cry. Numbness. It's awful, feels like it's gonna last forever.

Now my depressions are still can't bathe, but can eat and cry. Still want to just be in bed but can actually listen to the tv. Still want to be left alone but can at least express myself to my family and friends that I'm just not feeling well. They're not as dark...I know I will cycle out of it...