Some of it is a phobia and some of it is just the fact that it's inevitable. I fear death in general. Whether it be myself, my friends, my family, my pets or really anyone or anything in my life. It's a scary thing. But I think we have to try to put it in the back it our mind. We all think about it sometimes, but we can't let it control us. If it does, then were we really living to begin with? I totally get where you're coming from though.