Somedays I wish I'd never started
this going back to the past
Dreams that claw, thoughts once parted
sinking pretty fast.

So many triggers every day
rejection, words, paranoid
just need to get away
with myself I'm so annoyed.

Why do I let people hurt me
unintentionally, maybe, don't know
like water off a ducks back
wish I could let it go.

Please believe me, I try so hard
not to tread on toes
just accept me for who I am
fell guilt again, heaven knows.

Please give me the strength
to carry this on
want to keep people at arms length
this all weighs a ton

Sad and hurting badly, Jinny