I shared sometimg about, you're so deep into being independent not in any relationship no amount of love from anyone is going to move you easy.

That's where I've always been, I get really I'll physically when I feel someone is into me. Like I want them to be real and stay, but I accept not to lose myself and assume they will leave and not say anything to them about it ever until they do.

The truth is people are so quick to jump to something they feel is better so you always sit here wondering when will I be the one person people want to be around.

Like I just wounder around now and just live. It feels very cold and like my life was taken as if I did something wrong. But alas I have to realise many people relate to me but I guess it's ok to talk to people but I needed more than this. I can survive alone, but I'm so far gone being alone I can't stand it.

Metaphorically and literally I have in the past been super unhealthy skinny because I felt so starved from love or any kind of affectionit manifests physically to my overall health.