I am bombarded with constant thoughts of wanting to kill myself. I start to play out various suicide scenarios in my head, trying to decide which one is "best".

I don't want to do anything; I don't want to go anywhere. I just want to sleep... sleep it all away.

Nothing matters anymore. Life is meaningless. Everything I do is boring and nothing can cheer me up.

I feel utterly worthless, and that no one would care if I just ended it all. No one would go to my funeral. I will be forgotten, so "it doesn't matter if I kill myself".