I'm not the best mother. I am awful. I can't even give my kids a good day today. I can't even let them see a happy mother on Mother's Day . Because my husband triggers me so. The tears that come out are a deluge.

When my father died (I was 12) I didn't cry... I didn't ever cry! The deaths of my beloved grandma and her twin, grandpa, times I was supposed to have cried... Nothing! But I can't stop crying over my pathetic marriage because there's nothing I can ever do to make it better.