I hope it's okay if I quote some key parts of your post to address them.
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I don't know, I just don't want to suggest something and then it ending up an exaggeration
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If your GP is doing their job properly that shouldn't happen, they should hopefully take the time to have a thorough consultation with you before they diagnose.
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Also, I still live with my parents and I'd rather them not knowing about all this for the moment. My uncle has been dealing with alcohol problems for the past year and a half and got divorced because of it, so my cousin has it a lot harder. I don't want to come across as a complainer or someone with depression when my life is 'perfect'
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As you are an adult there is absolutely no reason to tell people about your GP/medical appointments and any outcomes unless you want to. Your GP is also legally bound to keep confidentiality.
As for your cousin/uncle - it doesn't mean that your life is 'perfect' because they are having problems, you can still empathise and give emotional support while taking care of yourself. I believe this feeling of not wanting to be a complainer may be because of your feelings of worthlessness. I will tell you - you are worthy of your GPs time and if necessary your family's support (if you choose to tell them), you deserve help with something that appears to be affecting your life negatively.
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I find it hard to talk about as well. I've never said any of this to anyone (except the procrastination part). I'd feel really embarrassed, I hate talking about feelings and everything. The only reason that I can say it here is because I can type it.
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Okay. I 'get' this. How would you feel about writing down much of what you have written here and taking it to a consultation to show your GP? It's what I once did, my GP read it and it helped her understand what was going on when I was too choked to speak. Your GP will have seen and heard all sorts of things in their career, this is unlikely to faze them. It can be hard to talk about these things, but if you find the right way to communicate it can be a lot easier.
Take care Iona - and remember you are worth this!