I also like that he said he would take a couple of days to think about it. He said he would call me back in two days and if I didn't hear from him, to give him a call.

But I'm really scared.

And confused.

I have been without meds now (except Klonopin as needed) for a couple months. And I've been pushing along. But I don't feel good. So do I look at the fact that I've been surviving (with bouts of depression and suicidal ideation) and say... well at least I'm doing what I have to do, so I don't need meds... or do I come to terms with the fact that just because I do the things I need to do, I am not doing so well underneath it all.... and I might need them.
I don't know, I don't know. Then again, I guess I really wouldn't know b/c I've never experienced a med that works well for me.

Lithium scares me. All drugs scare me.

I want my T.