For everyone it's so different and that's why I think it's so hard to understand. For me when I am truly manic I have no idea what's going on. Last year my husband had to get me hospitalized. I was completely out of character planning *to go to Poland to meet the pope* (I'm not normally Catholic) and I was starting to drain the bank account. Right now my pdoc says she thinks I'm hypomanic. I'm not sleeping much and I'm so irritated even every fiber of my body is irritated and I can't have anyone come near me.