I have been so good for a long time. For over a month I didn’t cut, scratch or dig, but I think I blew it last night. I have had an ingrown toenail that has been badly infected. I have soaked it and been treating it for more than 2 months. Trimming the nail, working the skin back, getting out pus even cutting off some of the dead skin or callous to get nail free to grow, but it is still bad. Anyway, I was cleaning it up last night and got out my scissors to trim some more of the nail cos it was caught under a flap of skin. I thought that I could easier trim off the skin and started trying to do that. Well it started to bleed. I grabbed some tissues to blot it and found myself cutting and cutting on that little area – the infection is bad so every touch hurt but I just kept after it making it bleed and watching the blood. I suddenly realized what I was doing, forced myself to put the scissors away, and bandaged the toe. I am so mad at myself! All week I struggled with wanting to SI and resisted. So now, I have blown it and I want to do more. Felt so good to sit there watching, dang this stuff is addicting. Ok I have not done any more today so am now 24 hours of no SI and counting. <font color="#666666"> </font>