I am sorry you have been through so much pain. Please keep on living.. You said you don’t deserve that “punishment” but you are being “punished” nonetheless. You are right about you don’t deserve that punishment, but you are wrong about you are being punished nonetheless, because it’s not a punishment, it’s a trial. Please go to ER to pass your kidney stone, who knows you will feel much better after that. What makes you so sure that they will only think that you just want to score opioids? Did something happen in past? You deserve what your partner, landlord, and country give to you. And more about your country, I live in third world nation, then let’s survive together.