I know you know how tough things have been for me lately.

I also know that you are leaving in two days for a two week vacation.

Tomorrow isn't going to make a difference. A half hour phone call is long enough for me to tell you how I feel, but it won't fix anything or really help me figure out how to cope without you for a couple of weeks.

It just shows me how pathetic I am that I feel this way. I am so alone. I want to believe in hope and that I can heal but I'm feeling more alone and hopeless then ever.