Thanks for your replies. I guess I probably should tell someone. It's just also that some moments I feel really bad and hopeless but then when I feel better a few hours later I feel like I'm exaggerating and that there's nothing wrong with me. And then a few days later or so I'll feel like crap again. It's like I'm constantly going between "I hate myself and my life" and "don't exaggerate and just do what you have to do".