i am without any support IRL, and have various medical conditions, including the residual brain damage. one by one, my 'symptoms' or my personality have driven away all those who would have cared for me. i cannot blame them for this. it is, in fact, almost certainly what i preferred to tolerating the irritation of their presence.

in the end we are all alone... so why not start early, and learn how to live on one's own, and eventually to die. there is great opportunity in having no distractions in one's spiritual journey. this is why people have ever turned away to the cloistered life, the hermitage, the cave.

fortunately for me, i have sufficient to meet my needs for food and shelter, warmth and medicines. and i have learned ways to occupy my mind that are beneficial and not destructive. to me, this is the end my life was always aiming for. i am working toward a deep inner peace which 'passeth understanding'.

may you have Peace, and the causes of Peace~