Jman, the drugs may help now, but they will stop helping and you will still need to take them. You will not die happy, you will be in a bigger nightmare, but I understand the temptation! Just to feel OK for a minute.

It will make you pay, steal your home and whatever little you have.

I guess you heard this a million times!

At the end of the day it is your choice and no one can make that choice for you.

Whatever you choose I send warm caring wishes.