chardorrie,

If my little 'flip-out' didn't scare you away (and I really hope that it didn't – I don't know where some of these things come from but they're coming harder and faster of late) then I would strongly recommend that you listen to BDPP – much more the voice of reason than I around here.

I'm not certain that my ducks are aligned even now. I've been trying to get in touch with my therapist for well over a week but he's not calling back. When I get to the point of feeling worthless and alone, I tend to crack and that's something that I can't take again.

BDPP is also right about the process that you much go through before allowing your therapist to be the designated driver. I had an appointment this morning. I called and cancelled my ride first and then, when the office opened, called and cancelled my appointment. As usual, I asked for a return call and, as usual, didn't receive one.

I'm hard-core bad right now. I don't have anyone to call. I don't know why I think that calling would do any good.

God I hope that my crazy response didn't send you packing. That's the price of asking a lunatic for help, I guess. We're very available whenever you like but you have to take a chance that we're not quite cured yet.