A lot of that sort of thing is stigma but has some truth lying in it. Yes, I could very easily (non-intentionally) hurt someone but the thing is that I know when I'm reaching that point. I get myself alone and safe so that nothing bad will happen. I'm actually pretty good about knowing when I need a "time-out", I guess you could call it. I just hate that people are scared of me because of it. I don't want to hurt anyone and I never have but they make me feel like I'm some sort of uncontrollable monster or something. Like I'm a hair-trigger or grenade just waiting to go off.

Honestly, I just got told to go kill myself and got called a "PTSD freak" by my own sister. You know, I've been told a lot worse by people who I never thought would say those types of things but it still kind of hurts knowing that my own sister wants me dead. Wants me dead because I'm just a "suicidal *****" who's crazy and don't mean jack. Wants me to get cancer again and this time, die from it.

I ****ing give up.