I don't know if this is the right forum but I am very frustrated with life I have been a sponsor for nutrimetrics I made no money out of it to clear my debt with them because I got a kit of the value of $149 but I couldn't pay it so I had to return everything. Money and time wasted I was a consultant for arbonne I bought $500 dollars using my own centrelink loan money to buy it i was hoping that was enough to get me started in the business nope everyone considered the products expensive and I ended up losing $500 dollars of my money on ****. It was a freaking pyramid scheme if I told my psychologist all of the impulsive things I did with my money at the moment she might even think I have bipolar or that I am a masocist because I knew deep down I wasn't going to make any money off of it but I still did it because I was bored and wasting money is the only way I can make my sad pathetic life less pathetic. So, now I have paid others on the internet psychics to tell me my life is going to be good will be honest if I keep on spending my money on things that are stupid and not worthy it won't be good because I will be in dept and might even end up in jail. I think I know all of these things are stupid I am not naive deep down i knew that my friend was making excuses that he was moving so he wouldn't give me my knifes back. Deep down I also knew that the other friend who was talking to me sexual when we first met wanted to have sex with me I also knew deep down he wanted me to go to his house so I could sleep with him and maybe even deep down I knew he was going to try and coercise me to have sex with him. that is how much I am upset and I hate and blame myself for everything negative that has happened to me.