i hope you can get the help you so need. i remember being abused by psych staff and felt no one heard me. i've been in the system over 30 years now and did see a complete turnaround of the way docs and t's got better and now i trust them more, but there still is shady things going on too. These people turn against us if we don't comply. our names get rolled through the mud on our charts and paperwork. you're right there are difficult docs and t but there seems to be no way to regulate them. good luck