I hope that you can find some light in the darkness. I so relate to your situation. Feeling trapped at home, little human contact, work that seems meaningless. It is soul-destroying. Feel free to PM me if you want to. We have a lot in common.

I have been reading and thinking about prisoners in solitary confinement. I got a book called "Hell is a Very Small Place" with essays written by inmates in solitary. It comforts me to read it, knowing that there are others who are struggling to maintain their sanity in the face of extreme isolation. It also makes me appreciate the simple things I can do that they can't, like go out for a walk, drive to the store, have lunch with a friend, pet my dogs, etc.

Again, I hope you can find some light in this seemingly interminable darkness.