I have an appointment scheduled in a couple of hours with a new Pdoc.
actually, I met with her one time before for an assessment back in November.
I couldn't make the follow up appointment...was supposed to re-schedule, but never did. Haven't been to anyone since. In that time I completely stopped taking all of my Psych Meds. At that time I was cocktailed, depakote, clonodine, thorazine (i can't remember for the life of me why my previous Pdoc took me off my Seroquel and decided Thorazine was a better choice??), I was being tapered down on my lexapro and was started on Lamictil as well. The "New" Pdoc was starting me on Latuda. My meds always seem to be in a constant state of flux, sometimes things just stop working, a lot of people experience this.
SOOOO...getting to the point here...please forgive me if I ramble. I for some reason stopped everything in a months time after seeing her - Dr. T. It had nothing at all to do with her personally or the mental health facility. I actually like it there. My last place was a nightmare. I have never had proper one on one psychotherapy. I am finding that this is something I truly need. This new place offers different types. I have been diagnosed bipolar and BPD - dual diagnosis as well - co-morbidity.
I have had one hour of sleep in the past three days.This has been on-going. Hypomania or Mania perhaps. I have been coming apart mentally and physically since September. My disorders are at a peak. I am completely exhausted now. How am I going to properly explain my situation to this woman today?? I can't even remember what I had discussed with her prior, aside from insisting my long-standing bi-polar diagnosis was incorrect. She believed it was pretty accurate, I asked her after the assessment actually. My BPD needs some serious attention. I recognize this and I am thankful that I am being proactive. I'm very flaky. I've taken my meds as prescribed for 10 years. This is the first time that I stopped. I just don't know how to present myself. I don't know if I can speak right now. I am typing though...
Any advice??? I need help...that's for certain. How do I get the right help??