i gotta stop this

i just dont know what to believe

i just need to grab something real and say "YAY! A BOTTLE OF WATER, IT IS REAL!"
nothing else matters, i cant figure things out so why is it driving me crazy..
just accept that i dont know... and it doesnt matter... if i did know what could it change... nothing....

im so stubborn... why do i have to be like this



giving up... just please make it stop... let me go back into the illusion and pretend like i know what is happening,
i wanna go home... where ever home is....

tired of being like this... so tired...
what did i do wrong..

thanks for putting up with me.. really..

im sorry