By "BPD" do you mean, "Borderline Personality Disorder"?
or BD, "Bipolar Disorder"?
Just was wondering.
Sky just made a good point(s).
Are you taking any mood stabilizers? Are you following a treatment plan with a psychiatrist?
It is important to be in a treatment plan and given proper mood stabilizer(s) and other meds combined if there is a need for adjunct meds.
I also feel talking with a therapist would be most helpful in combination.
Not everyone with Bipolar disorder experience "all" the symptoms related to this disorder, much varies with the severity and/or frequency of episodes or pending ones.
It takes a little while for many to feel the effects of their medications, some meds may have to be changed and/or titrated up or down, some people may require several different meds and some people can have more than one disorder.
Multiple disorders are possible but also the right combo of eds and therapy can address them.
I'm wishing you lots of luck with this, and hope at the same time can be honest with your husband about your feelings, though difficult at the present time, try to have consideration of what he is going through too.
Please take care now,
DE