Dear MC,
You're awesome. I mean, you apologized as soon as I sat down for not texting me back sooner Friday, even though you were out of town. You reiterated how you weren't annoyed with me. You let me spend a lot of the session talking about my stuff, though it's a bit related to my relationship with H. (And you asked him about his stuff, too, so it was fairly balanced.) You made me laugh through my tears. (And were you wiping away a tear at one point? It looked like it, but maybe your eye just itched.)
You validated my feelings and said you were OK with continuing to do that, though you said you wanted me to reach a place where I could validate myself or at least be validated by H. Because you said you were a much less important person in my life than H or myself. Of course H (and DD) are at the top level of the importance hierarchy for me, but I don't think you realize that you're not that far behind them (T is really high up there, too). Or maybe you do? Maybe that's screwed up or pathetic or something, but it's just how it is for me right now. I wish you could stay in my life forever.
Love,
LT
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