Hello again, sinking: I replied to another of your posts earlier with regard to your new fear of reading posts here on PC. In thinking about that one, & now this one, it sounds to me as though you are really just having a very difficult time in general, sinking.

I don't know of any way to stop the urge to drink other than to just stop. Don't have any of the stuff in your home... anywhere you can get at it... & don't go out & buy any. There may also be alcohol-related support groups in your area you can join as well... such as Alcoholics Anonymous. I think that most people who've had to battle alcohol abuse would say that it's just one day at a time. I'm sorry this has become a problem for you...