At the end of the day it's your decision. No one makes you do it and no one can stop you, but there are consequences, physical and emotional. Do you want to live with those?

Maybe a list of pros and cons could help you understand what you really think .....once you have come down a little.

In the meantime, how about contacting a helpline to get you through the next minutes and hours? What could you lose by it, they won't know who you are or where you live.

Caring wishes