I've been at my current job for almost 1 1/2 years now, and it's good. I was offered an actual position 2 months into an internship I was doing, and was able to keep working and finish schooling at the same time. Within a few months of being hired I was full-time, and everything was so wonderful about it. Really. My internship supervisor at the job had been talking about trying to get me a job when I finished school, and he didn't think he'd even be able to get me more than 10-15 hours a week then. By that point I was one of the senior employees of our department. I love my job, I love what I do, this isn't a thread to complain about that at all. I'm even working in the right position now to get licensed by my state in 2 areas that I enjoy working in.

Today was just kind of a wake up call in terms of my need to "grow up", and how my MI has affected so much. While talking with my supervisor this afternoon, I realized that I'm only about 3 months away from the last license I've been working towards. When I mentioned it, he asked me what my future plans are. I have no idea. I plan on staying here for a while, at least, but as he also mentioned the pay isn't amazing for what I do, and there isn't a lot of room for diversifying. I work in corrections, and I enjoy it and would like to continue working with these types of people. The only real career move I would like to do would be moving on to working in a prison. But that change is somewhere far down the road, maybe even another 5 years away. It just makes me wonder what I really want. Am I wanting to stay here because I really love it and find it rewarding, or am I just too afraid to move forward? I've already felt some burnout from the work, but I also have major depression and anxiety, so that might have contributed.

I guess I just kind of needed to rant some about this. I'll be 29 in a few weeks, and I don't know what I want from my life. I feel like most people have an idea by now, but when I look ahead I don't see any huge dreams or hopes or aspirations. Just the same thing, forever.