I'm sorry you feel this way and I hope everything gets worked out for you *pat pat*

First, there's nothing like a lump of carbon to let you know how much someone loves you right?

I could write ten pages on reasons why you might feel this way. But the fact is his friends are not going to go away without his relationship with you becoming unhealthy, especially friends he has known for years longer than you.

The different things that can be causing this range from you not being able to trust your father, to the idea that maybe he is untrustworthy and you're trying to force yourself into believing he is to live out that fairy tale we are all trained to believe is love.

I hope things get better for you. You have my sympathy.

<3