ADashOfHope - I like your username �� I hope you really do have some hope about your future? I think there are plenty of people here in these forums that can relate to your story, myself included. You are not causing any of us to feel down by sharing your story!

I don't have any easy answers for you. I've been in a severe state of depression for over 3 yrs, and finally decided to get a new pdoc. I'm hoping he'll be able to find better med(s) for me. My old pdoc had told me we'd tried almost all the available psych meds, so I was feeling hopeless. But new pdoc says there are plenty other meds to try. Sometimes you need a fresh look at things... How long have you been seeing your pdoc? As far as your therapist, I'd recommend trying to maintain the weekly visits. It's so important to have someone to confide in when feeling depressed.

Hope things improve for you!!