T: What is it?

Me: I don't want to say

T: Okay, it's just, I saw you shift there.

Me: I want to tell you what I'm thinking but I don't. I'm scared the answer might be hurtful. I will tell you, but don't answer me.

T: okay.

Me: I'm wondering whether last session when you said I mattered to you, whether that's the same as "I care about you".

T: but you don't want me to answer.

Me: there are conflicting needs fighting with each other.

T: One need is to know I care about you.

Me: I can't even say that.

T: I'm feeling conflicted because I feel as though you are saying you don't want to know on one hand, yet I'm hearing "tell me!".

Me: I don't want to take the risk.

T: Well I feel like one of us has to; I do care about you Echos. That has grown as you have shared more of yourself with me, and I can feel that in my heart.

My T is awesome.