I know this industry has the ability to help, but it also has the ability to harm. Not everyone's experience in the healthcare system is wholly positive: do not shame people for wanting or needing to vent their negative experiences. If anything it is vital to spread awareness and educate one another so as to prevent this from happening to others and to improve the healthcare industry.

First off, the parties involved are in fact, guilty of malpractice. Altering and falsifying documents is both highly illegal and unethical, as is breach of confidentiality and deleting important evidence. Manipulating and gas-lighting is sadistic and socio-pathic, protecting friends and colleagues at the expense of an honest victim's credibility is beyond evil. The list goes on and on...

Firstly, I should note that I was given permission to express anger in therapy prior to leaving the voicemails. I was told that I could not speak about my issues via phone coaching (which is indeed correctly in line with DBT modality) and thus, my anger would have to be saved for individual sessions. I had repeatedly asked my individual therapist to speak about anger in session, but she kept pushing it off and said it would have to wait until she returned from vacation. After she returned, she drew up the contingency plan: essentially barring me from talking about my anger. This is arguably unethical AND it also pushes the bounds of DBT modality. I have asked DBT therapists about this and they say it seems a bit harsh considering the importance of talking about issues in therapy, (let alone DBT) especially when I had given weeks of notice of my building anger. I told my DBT therapist I would go find another therapist outside of DBT to vent my anger to, if she did not allow me to, and the response I got was that I was not allowed to have another therapist outside of DBT... See my predicament? I had just started DBT groups and so I had next to zero knowledge of the skills; so how could they possibly expect me to handle the anger on my own? Usually these things come on gradually after a patient is taught the skills, not the other way around.

I was told I had a monster under the bed for $@#% sakes, that alone was traumatic! Everyone in the hospital was reacting to a series of malicious lies written in my charts. In order to get back into DBT: they gave me no choice but to do a full-fledged psychological examination by a forensic psychologist. This is the type of professional who is assigned to sociopaths and serial killers in law enforcement and litigation. It was traumatizing! This, in addition to the fact that this was all occurring because of a series of falsified medical records; namely the ridiculous accusations that I was somehow faking my illness despite having been traumatized by the abandonment of my therapist and also accused of threatening to kill people I loved and trusted?! ABSOLUTE NONSENSE! This made things even more strange. Not to mention I had already done the DIB-R intake to get into DBT and had the borderline diagnosis for approximately 5 years at the time. This was all very strange and they knew it, so I threatened a lawsuit and they ended up covering up the mistake to large extent.

It doesn't matter how much of an opinion it is - when you have 25 healthcare professionals who are friends and colleagues and have a common interest to protect one another, and thus, write the same malicious content in order to cover-up a series of very serious events; you cannot possibly hope to defend yourself in court with the simple argument that medical records are merely opinions. Sure, medical professionals are supposed to treat medical records as opinions and take a patient at face value, but do you really think they will listen to someone who suffers from mental illness over charts written by their fellow friends and colleagues?