I'm so sorry, sweetie. It was very brave of you to confront him, though. I hope you can find at least a little bit of peace in having been able to do that. I'm sorry he was such a jerk to you about it, then and now. I know how hard it is not to think otherwise in the face of stuff like this, but his refusal to deal with it is on his conscience, not yours. You did the best you could. You are a good person and you DID. NOT. DESERVE. what happened to you, even when people try to make you think you did.

I'm struggling with this too right now. Maybe we can struggle and cry together. I could use some company.

Gentle hugs, if OK. I am so freaking triggered by my own stuff right now that I can't bear the thought of being touched even virtually, so I understand if you'd rather not. Just know I'm thinking of you and I care.

Much love, Candy