Thank you for the reply,
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Have you considered using your experience as a teaching opportunity? A lot of clinicians who are in a teaching role are very interested in improving care.
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I have indeed. I think litigation is a dead-end idea, so I've been thinking of ways to educate fellow citizens. The primary motivation is to keep others from having to go through this very traumatic experience. It can happen to anyone of us and unfortunately these circumstances happen more often than we know...
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It is hard to sue doctors here in Canada. You need a lot of money to pay a good lawyer and have a strong case. Have you spoken to a lawyer? Another option to consider is submitting a complaint to the professional college.
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I have also heard this. I really have no intention to sue anyone, that is not in my character. I think it will be much more effective to do something positive and change the system versus pick a battle with a group of professionals who are defending one another.
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Venting anger is okay up to a certain point. If it comes across as threatening people don't appreciate it. Therapy and treatment has to feel safe for all involved for it to work. Once that safety is threatened people tend to react.
Leaving threatening messages implies you don't deal with conflict and rejection very well. Clinicians don't take kindly to argumentative and difficult patients especially ones who project rage. Angry and hostile people are hard to work with.
Your diagnosis may be contributing to your problems. A lot of psychiatrists avoid clients with your diagnosis.
How much do you use services? If you are a heavy user who presents with chronic suicidal ideation and needs constant emotional support it tends to frustrate the hell out of clinicians.
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I agree that venting anger is okay up until a certain point. Let's get something straight: I did NOT threaten anyone. EVER. If they ever felt threatened it was never my intent and I never escalated to the extent of threatening others. I did NOT leave threatening messages, I left angry messages asking for answers; which I felt was well within my rights as a patient, especially after having been given permission to express anger. Keep in mind this is the first time I have ever felt safe to show anger in therapy.
I have heard that some clinicians dislike working with borderline sufferers, however, this was never an issue prior to these particular circumstances. It is amazing how a set of lies in charts will impact treatment moving forward. It shows just how broken this system really is, especially when the content is written maliciously.
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This is definitely odd. I've never heard of a patient doing psychological testing in the emergency department.
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It is strange indeed. I should clarify that the actual testing wasn't done until I was out of psych-emergency and in a ward.
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This is the problem. I realize the fact that I am up against a long list of unionized, "professionals," who also happen to be friends and colleagues with one another... How can I possibly fight against that?
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Have you considered that you may not be ready for DBT at this moment in time? Maybe you need to work on the skills with a therapist who has strict boundaries to help prevent you from developing a strong attachment. You seem to get over involved with these people which is hurting you. Why do you do this? What do you really want from these people? A sense of identity? Belonging? Nurturing? Think about this.
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At this time, due to the additional traumas and complex PTSD from all of this - I am in no space to do DBT. Especially with the strong attachment issues like you mention. I do indeed get overly involved and vulnerable with these people and I even experienced a touch of Stockholm syndrome; which I can only recognize now that I am out of the situation and have gained clarity. I actually loved these people. Yes: I needed all those things, nurturing, comfort, security, belonging, etc... They offered me these things just long enough to alter documentation and build a case against me in preparation for a lawsuit... It was disgusting. And once I got my records and realized they were changed, they gas-lighted me and pretended like nothing was wrong!
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I hope my response didn't offend you. It wasn't my intent.
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I appreciate the sentiment. I am sensitive but I appreciate you taking the time to ask questions; it means you actually have an interest in this and care.
Thanks,
HD