I had a job interview today for a teaching position in a public school. I thought I did terrible (of course) and beat myself up all day. Well when I got home I got a call from the interviewer - they want me to come in for a second interview/demo lesson!!! I am SO excited. Not only that, but they're actually looking for a position to put me in. She said they only have one English position available and they have two good internal candidates. So my heart dropped a little bit. And then she said BUT they really like me and my philosophy and they have openings in the special Ed department that they think I could fit into. They think I have something unique to offer the district (which I do dammit). I'm so excited. I mean it's only a second interview, I'd have to get through the demo lesson and then if I make it meet the superintendent and impress him/her, but it's a start.

I'm trying not to let my anxiety get to me. I've been stable for three months now. That's a miracle. But I know bipolar can jump up to get me at any time. I worry that I won't be able to handle a new job and also going to school (which I would have to do to keep my special Ed certification). But then I think I'll never know if I don't try.

I don't want to get my hopes up about this job. But I'm just happy I made it to the second round.

Only six more weeks left in the job I hate, and then new job or no new job I am OUT. **** this place. No more kids cursing me out, no more destroying my classroom, no more kids disrespecting me all ****ing day. I know in a new school all these things could happen, but if it's a public school it will happen a whole lot less. Even in special Ed.

I just wanted to share my excitement with my friends on here! You've all always been so supportive of me, it's nice to be able to report good news!