It hurts too much and I can't scream. I can whisper all I want and no one hears. A think fast but focus on none of it. I'm in pain but I'm numb. I'm angry but lack the energy to do anything about it. People are all around me and I feel like I'm alone in an empty auditorium.
Nothing makes sense and nothing has any color anymore. Nothing black or white. Its all just there and I can't see it. If I do I don't seem to care.
I go through these periods of time where I have zero emotion and other times hurting so bad I can't breathe. I'm missing time out of each day and I can't get it back. I don't feel real. Life's just seems to be a sick joke.
Most the time I don't feel, but when I do I just...hurt.
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