I've realized that for the past 8-9 months I'm using dissociation on purpose to get me through the day.
Does anyone else do that?
I've used Netflix & HBO/go to lose myself for most of the day so I don't have to think. I have a daily alarm set on my phone so I know when I need to disconnect & become "super mom" again.

Wow, what a waste of a year. Makes me feel so stupidly pathetic.