this may sound strange but i am proud that i have a mental illness and have survived this long....i didn't kill myself and i did do some good things after breaking down....i want to continue talking with others about our mental illnesses....it is the most interesting thing in my life...why is there such illness...what is causing this....and how are we being mistreated....i yearn to talk with others....i yearn to be supportive of each other in our quest for some rest and peace and security....