I've struggled with this stuff for too many years through too many Ts because I couldn't tell anyone what really bothered me. I'm having trouble telling my T, too. She doesn't totally get it but that's because I censor my thoughts and feelings. I know I can tell my T anything but

when I talk sometimes other words come out instead of what I want to say.

I get too embarrassed and ashamed.

I stumble over my words, but they need to be said.