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Originally Posted by junkDNA
When I told my T I love him I was so nervous. I had to do it thru a text bc I couldn't say it out loud. I was so afraid it was wrong and bad. He totally got it though. And responded so kindly. I've never told him in person. Actually that was the only time I mentioned it. He references my caring about him sometimes. Bc of what happened w my former T , admitting my care and love for my current T put me in such a vulnerable position. I felt I trusted T though. It helped me so much as well when he told me he felt parental transference for his T when he was in his own long term therapy.
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It's incredibly brave of you to allow yourself to be vulnerable after everything you went through with your former therapist. Thanks for sharing that
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Originally Posted by junkDNA
I was wondering if you might be trying to push these feelings away bc of what turned out with your former T? Are you maybe afraid it will not be healing and/or healthy? I read your other T did not handle your feelings well and it put you in a lot of distress. Just a thought
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Yes I think it's related; the felt rejection from him was very painful and the thing I feared most was T being freaked out by the question and not wanting to answer (just like T1 did) but I think it also comes from having a mother who was emotionally rejecting. That's at the core of it and probably why T1's rejection hurt so much.