I am very tired and very depressed today,my mood is rock bottom,I feel awful,like I am in a deep ,dark ,pit,I can't seem to focus and the heat has got to me.I think I have heat exhaustion.

I did manage to go out,I returned some sandal that I had bought online that were too small to a store.Walking was difficult cos my legs are weak and my spine twisted.I had to sit down and have a coffee break before I could continue.
I also picked up my insulin from the pharmacy and went to see my mum,she was lovely to see but I was moody and irritable with her.

I was also despairing about world affairs and how corrupt dangerous people are the leaders of the world I read the bible and Jesus's words calmed me and bought me peace.Before that I had been arguing with customer services on the phone and getting angry and worked up.

I live alone and do not have family of my own or a partner so I feel lonely and I want love and companionship.I am so very afraid I will be alone for the rest of my life.I am too ill and disabled and fat no one would want to be with meI think and feel that all the time.

I wish I had someone to hold me and hug me!

Thanks for reading.
Marylinx