I have been searching for my purpose for years and I still don't know what it is. I have never felt that I have anything valuable to contribute and everything I have done, I have failed at it somehow because of my own deficiencies (lack of abilities), personality issues, etc. I used to be able to get motivated and feel inspired to do things and then I would try things and it would not go well which made me become even more reclusive. I don't know how to get involved in something when it seems that I don't really have anything to contribute. I realize how self-involved and self-centered I sound (and I am), but at the same time I legitimately think and feel that it would be better if I didn't do anything because I think I tend to make things worse for others and that others don't want me around.