Dear T,

What did you mean when you sort of suggested I not write emotional emails like the one, "I feel sad?"... Im asking because you told me you wanted to explore my sadness.
Did that email bother you? Is it hard for you to talk about death?

A few times you have suggested I draw or paint..or create something...make some kind of art to express my feelings.

Although I'm not good at it, writing is my art. Writing does that for me.

I don't sit here and force myself to be sad so I can write, if that's what worries you; I am already sad, depressed, embarrassed, happy...and writing expresses that. Writing gets that out away from me. Writing is an extension of that. Writing expresses what I'm feeling the same as a drawing or singing or shouting for joy.