Thanks for reading and replying! I will take your suggestions into consideration. I used to have a DBT skills workbook but I am not sure where it is now. I want to get this book called Reinvent Your Life by Jeffrey Young which is about schema therapy. I find it interesting and helpful, but I think it should be probably be used in conjunction with other types of therapy for a more balanced approach.
I just find it hard to stay motivated when it seems like everything in my life in crumbling (relationships, finances, etc.) and it seems like I have permanently ruined or continue to ruin things in my life and relationships, its like what am I still going on for? Do you know what I mean?