Okay so i have been struggling to kick my opiate habit and i think it has me cycling like crazy. Last night i felt like i had endless energy, i ran for awhile, did a bunch of things on my to do list, talked a ton, etc. I was also very quick to start swearing while talking to my mom and raised my voice over small things, but also felt very happy at the same time talking about all sorts of things and being nice and understanding. I felt like i could go off at any second, but was in a good mood at the same time? Then i was with my girl later and was crazy sexual and talkative. At the same though moments later i'd feel like i was crashing and get a foggy feeling and headache and just kind of lay there saying nothing. Then i'd get all excitable again. Then i'd feel suicidal for no reason, just like thinking of killing myself because i'd think i don't belong in this world. It was just all these symtpms going up and down, but it was happening in the matter of minutes.

Thanks for reading